The past few weeks have proven challenging for me due to an overwhelming amount of setbacks. My computer recently died, and after my husband had taken a look at it, we discovered it was the hard drive which was causing me problems. (I am still praising the Lord it was not the motherboard because I can't replace a whole computer at this time!) So we ordered another hard drive and began to install it, only to find it would not fit properly into the tower we have. Also while we were waiting to see what was wrong with the computer, a neighbor of ours suggested I blog from my phone. Well, I looked up the app that I used before to blog with from my phone when I first started out, only to find that my phone is no longer compatible with that app. Also, it seemed every time I wanted to write, either for the blog or the book I am working on, there would be a series of distractions or obligations which required my immediate attention. So I quickly found myself becoming more and more discouraged. I even began to stop talking with God because I did not want to sound like I was complaining just as the children of Israel had done when they left Egypt (found throughout the books of Exodus and Numbers). I got so depressed because here I am finally stepping out on faith, wanting to change my life, and now I have to deal with all of this too! I just wanted to give up and quit!
But my loving husband reminded me if God called me to do this, which I truly believe without a shadow of a doubt, then I must continue. He also told me that the things which are taking place were nothing more than just small bumps in the road even though I see them as huge mountains I have to climb. I guess I thought when I finally began the journey toward changing my life and wanting to live for Jesus that things would be easier. That these lessons about stumbling were done away with but I recently was reminded by the Holy Spirit about Proverbs 24:16 KJV which says "For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again: but the wicked shall fall into mischief." So yes, the past few weeks have caused me to fall hard, but here I am choosing to stand up again! I want to believe the plans and path for me are not complete yet and that I must press on despite my feelings or what it looks like and that God will somehow make a way!
At this time I am not back to things being 100%, but I am going to continue with what I can. As of now, I am working on another tower which also has some hard drive issues, but we are going to pray and agree that I will make it through these temporary setbacks so I can keep moving forward. In this season, for anyone who feels as if they are battling enormous obstacles or stumbling blocks, I recommend you meditate on Galatians 6:9 KJV which says "And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not." Lastly, remember though we may stumble, there is still a race to be run!