Could God do it again?
Could He provide me with the same experience or greater?
Should I just try things differently this time?
Many of these questions and thoughts came from fears I had cooked up in my own head. I thought about what would happen if my son did not turn head down for his time of birth? or what would happen to my son or me if either of us needed serious medical attention? So I prayed and prayed and prayed, but I still did not get a clear answer from God. My husband and I discussed the matter more times than I could count but we kept coming back to the conclusion of let's have a home birth again.
Now back to the point of me wanting to give up completely. The contractions for the birth of my son were hard and fast. They had started at an interval of every 3 minutes then went to 2 minutes and quickly to 1 minute apart. I barely had time to brace myself properly for the next one. Around the time that I mentioned I could not make it was when I realized that my son was ready to be born.
Once the birth was all over, God showed me that He heard my prayers. My son's birth was 2 hours of active labor and we were both taken care with no medical issues. I share this story with you because if you are going through a hard time or situation and feel like you are not going to make it, just remember that God's grace is sufficient to see you through (2 Corinthians 12:9).