As I sat on the floor in my bedroom on Mother's Day with a moment to myself (shout out to my husband for cooking breakfast while watching our seven-month-old son and six-year-old daughter), I decided to take some time to communicate with God. In my conversation with my Heavenly Father, I thanked Him for all he has done for my family and me then proceeded to share with him the many dreams and changes I would like to see in my life. As I poured out all of my deepest thoughts, feelings and more specifically my anxiety about completing the book He asked me to write, I started to realize just how filled with impatience I am about enduring the process towards the vision He has given me in this season. I quickly noticed that I want all the things He has promised me to manifest now. And I do mean RIGHT NOW!
Now I know, you may say, I sound rather childish, but lately, I am growing tired of being seen by others through the lens of my faults and what they assume I lack. Yes, I am the first to say to myself "I am a work in progress" but instead of enjoying and focusing on the season I am in right now I am becoming more discontent because those faults keep getting highlighted. So much so that I have started to rush God, myself, and the journey altogether. Before I got completely consumed with all my thoughts, the Holy Spirit had to gently remind me that God does not operate within my view of time. The Bible says in 2 Peter 3:8 KJV "But, beloved, be not ignorant of this one thing, that one day is with the Lord as a thousand years and a thousand years as one day." After reading this verse, I quickly realized that I needed to repent for trying to place any stipulations on God.
Today's society has created in us an expectation of things to move forward faster and happen even quicker. But God does not necessarily operate in this manner all the time, and I often wonder if we miss out on God's full blessings for our lives due to this learned impatience. What I have come to realize is that this journey comes with its share of mountain and valley experiences and as we go through them God moves and operates on our behalf as He sees fit to do so. Like the song by Dottie Peoples, He's An On Time God says "He may not come when you want him, but he'll be right there on time." God has proven over and over again to me that His timing is best for my life and I hope that you will allow Him to show you the same. If this is an area of struggle in your life, I encourage you to pray and meditate on Ecclesiastes 3:1 KJV "To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven." So relax, take a breath, and rest assured in God's timing!