The saying "Life is a marathon, not a sprint" is echoed in Ecclesiastes 9:11 KJV which says "I returned, and saw under the sun, that the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favour to men of skill; but time and chance happeneth to them all." I used to think that life was a sprint to see who could get to the finish line the fastest. Especially when I saw those around me getting new opportunities or doors opened for them. It seemed as if they were constantly passing me by. I became more of aware of this feeling of being left behind when I sat down to dinner with engineers and realized I was the only one who did not have a prestigious degree. Also, the feelings became more amplified due to many pastors I listened to were preaching about finding one's God-given purpose and I still did not know mine. So I started reflecting over my life wishing I had done many things differently in my past. But God was so merciful to remind me that the season I was in was not in vain.
So in my prayer time, I prayed for God to show me my purpose. I asked Him to reveal to me why he created me? I asked these questions because I wanted to know the race I was to run so I could follow the instructions in Proverbs 4:25-26 KJV which says "Let thine eyes look right on, and let thine eyelids look straight before thee. Ponder the path of thy feet, and let all thy ways be established." I wanted to stop looking to the left and the right of me to see how everyone else was running their race. I deeply desired to get started even if I was just getting into the starting blocks in my own lane. When God answered me, I was overjoyed but I could tell the race was not going to be an easy one.
I started out so full of excitement, as I saw things were starting to come together in order to do what God asked me to do. But lately, as I have tried to be obedient it seems that things have gotten in the way. It seemed like every time I would tell myself I will dedicate time to writing, I would get interrupted by my family, my phone, even myself not wanting to do it or just life in general. I got so frustrated one day that I asked God what is going on and are you sure this what you called me to do? Looking back, I can't believe I was bold enough to question that very same God who provided me with an answer to what my purpose was in the first place. I guess I did not realize that walking in my purpose would also include fighting for it. I don't mean a physical fight but more of a spiritual one. I have to fight off the thoughts of not being good enough to write or the many other interruptions from life that consistently come up. Lastly, God reminded me that my race was also not all about me!
This baffled me when I heard this. I was like, what do you mean my race is not all about me? So the Holy Spirit reminded me of Hebrews 12:1-2 which says "Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God." Yep, you read that right! It says a cloud of witnesses! This verse helped me to understand that in being obedient to what God has called me to that I am not only going to be impacted but there will be others too. Also, the part of the verse about "Jesus the author and finisher of our faith" really helped me to see that if God has called me to do something then he will be there throughout the whole race that I must run. If you are struggling to continue running the race set before you, I want to tell you that you are not alone and I would like to pray for you! So if you would like to leave just your first name in the comments section, I will pray for your strength to keep running. Remember God needs you to finish and not faint!