In prayer and in passing thoughts, I have desired to rekindle a relationship with the Lord like I had when I was younger. This stemmed from having a stronger connection which was born through prayer, study and the power felt from the Holy Spirit. Now all those things seem to be lacking or not as predominant in my life as I would like them to be.
I finally realized that this request is really kind of absurd due to the major fact that the woman I am today is very different than my younger self. I have different desires, needs, circumstances along with a whole new mindset and outlook on life itself.
That younger version of me had the relationship with God that was needed at that point and time of my life. What I need now is to have the relationship with God for the woman I am today. This involves allowing the Holy Spirit to lead me when it comes to prayer time, studying and overall instruction.
So if your thoughts lately have been like mine, I challenge you to leave the past in the past and to allow God to create a new relationship with you for who and where you are today!