The past few weeks have proven challenging for me due to an overwhelming amount of setbacks. My computer recently died, and after my husband had taken a look at it, we discovered it was the hard drive which was causing me problems. (I am still praising the Lord it was not the motherboard because I can't replace a whole computer at this time!) So we ordered another hard drive and began to install it, only to find it would not fit properly into the tower we have. Also while we were waiting to see what was wrong with the computer, a neighbor of ours suggested I blog from my phone. Well, I looked up the app that I used before to blog with from my phone when I first started out, only to find that my phone is no longer compatible with that app. Also, it seemed every time I wanted to write, either for the blog or the book I am working on, there would be a series of distractions or obligations which required my immediate attention. So I quickly found myself becoming more and more discouraged. I even began to stop talking with God because I did not want to sound like I was complaining just as the children of Israel had done when they left Egypt (found throughout the books of Exodus and Numbers). I got so depressed because here I am finally stepping out on faith, wanting to change my life, and now I have to deal with all of this too! I just wanted to give up and quit!
Looking back over my journal entries from last year revealed one reoccurring theme to me. Just how much I lived by my emotions. Not only was I pregnant during this time but to top it all off, I truly endured some rather trying test and trials. So I wanted to explore this topic because, in a sermon, I heard a pastor say "As long as you can be moved, you can't be effective!" This statement struck a chord with me because I've experienced plenty of moments where I have allowed my feelings to run the course of my day, in turn, causing me not to get much, if anything, accomplished.
Have you ever received a promise from God, but it seemed to be taking its time to manifest? I know the feeling. Right now, I am still waiting for some things that God has shown me in my dreams to manifest from the spiritual realm to the physical. I completely understand not wanting to wait and starting to manufacture your own blessing out of becoming impatient. The Holy Spirit has had to constantly remind me of 2 Peter 3:8-9 KJV which says "But, beloved, be not ignorant of this one thing, that one day is with the Lord as a thousand years and a thousand years as one day. The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance." The hope that resonates in these verses comes from the fact that God does not view time the same way that we do and thank God for it!