I've always heard people say "good things come to those who wait" but I believe this phrase left out some very important stipulations that are vital parts of this Christian journey. What it should have been revised to say is "good things come to those who wait, work hard, endure the character building process and are obediently walking toward what God has called them to do." Now I know my version is a mouthful to say when encouraging someone and would probably never catch on, but as I am learning in my current season of walking entirely by faith, I wish someone would have shared these exact words with me. It can be so easy to get caught up in the test and trials that come our way as well as the many other distractions that try to overtake us while pursuing our God given purposes. So what inspired this particular blog was a recent lack of focus and pressure I was experiencing along my journey.
Recently after coming back from vacation, my daughter pointed out something about me that caused me to sit down at the feet of God. She said, "Mom, I notice when you get around other people you act differently." My initial thought was to defend myself, but instead, I began to examine my behavior and interactions over the past year. I did not realize that I was still wrapped up in people bondage to the point where I have been afraid just to be myself. See this started to happen due to me trying so hard to be different than my past that I began to seek out what others were doing in their lives. If I saw someone who seemed financially or spiritually well off, then I wanted to emulate them. So instead of progressing the way God wanted me to grow in my journey, I ended up birthing confusion within myself.
As I sat on the floor in my bedroom on Mother's Day with a moment to myself (shout out to my husband for cooking breakfast while watching our seven-month-old son and six-year-old daughter), I decided to take some time to communicate with God. In my conversation with my Heavenly Father, I thanked Him for all he has done for my family and me then proceeded to share with him the many dreams and changes I would like to see in my life. As I poured out all of my deepest thoughts, feelings and more specifically my anxiety about completing the book He asked me to write, I started to realize just how filled with impatience I am about enduring the process towards the vision He has given me in this season. I quickly noticed that I want all the things He has promised me to manifest now. And I do mean RIGHT NOW!