Why does it seem like new beginnings are birthed in the midst of a storm?
This question came to mind last night while I was looking through past journal entries. Here is the part of my prayer to God that sparked my question above...
"Lastly thank you for the confirmation with the pregnancy test. Please lead, protect and help me through this new journey. You have done it before and I know you will do it again."
Many times we try to do too many things on our own and as a result, we find ourselves worn out to the point of exhaustion. Then after it is too late, we notice the effect of trying to do it all by ourselves especially through the people around us.
Well, this is my life right now. Being a SAHM (stay at home mom) of two children and a wife, I feel like I have too much on my plate sometimes. I am normally multitasking to the point that I don't know if I am coming or going. Many times I work myself beyond the point of exhaustion which causes me to be cranky as my daughter points out often. The Holy Spirit showed me that when I don't spend time in the Bible or in prayer that my spirit starts to harden and then that hardness begins to manifest into my physical being as well. This, in turn, effects my family because I can become unpleasant to be around due to the anger and anxiety which has built up over time.
Lately, I have been struggling a little with breastfeeding. There is this pain that is triggered on one side and it causes me great discomfort. With my son being less than 2 months old, breastfeeding is the route I really want to go and I have been praying I can make it to a year.
This small bump in our journey made me feel bad to the point where I believed that I may not be able to continue. I even started to think that my milk supply may not be enough. As I went to pump the side that is sore, I began to speak words of encouragement over myself. Things like God made your body for your son so you will produce what he needs or your milk supply will be sufficient in the name of Jesus.