My family pointed out to me that I never say what I mean. Even though I was a little offended by their comment, God allowed me to remain to open minded to hear and understand what they meant. They mentioned that I have a tendency to ask in roundabout way for the things I want or may need help with rather than just come out and say it directly. So upon giving what they said some more thought, I came to the realization that I truly don't know how to ask for help.
This lesson came to me when I had family coming over to visit. I like to give away clothes that my daughter can no longer fit in order to bless someone else because God blessed me with bags of clothes in the past from others. So I started cleaning out my daughter's dresser a couple days before the family was to arrive.
What God showed me is that I failed to be fully prepared.
There is a beautiful hymn that says
All to Jesus I surrender,
All to Him I freely give;
I will ever love and trust Him,
In His presence daily live.
I surrender all,
I surrender all.
All to Thee, my blessed Savior,
I surrender all.
Let's look at what it means to surrender. Merriam-Webster defines surrender as to give the control or use of (something) to someone else. Now I know this definition does not make "surrendering" sound like a pleasant task but let me share some of my journey with you.
I knew about Jesus from growing up in the church but for some reason, I still had a fear of surrendering all to God. I did not know exactly what that would look like and was not sure what I would have to give up or let go of. It took me going through some trials and errors to get to a place of brokenness that I realized there had to be a better way to live.