Recently after coming back from vacation, my daughter pointed out something about me that caused me to sit down at the feet of God. She said, "Mom, I notice when you get around other people you act differently." My initial thought was to defend myself, but instead, I began to examine my behavior and interactions over the past year. I did not realize that I was still wrapped up in people bondage to the point where I have been afraid just to be myself. See this started to happen due to me trying so hard to be different than my past that I began to seek out what others were doing in their lives. If I saw someone who seemed financially or spiritually well off, then I wanted to emulate them. So instead of progressing the way God wanted me to grow in my journey, I ended up birthing confusion within myself.
I had gotten to a place where I had allowed my true identity to slip away and became someone my child nor I could recognize. God showed me that He desires for me to not only be consistent when I am around my family and others but wants me to focus on how He defines my identity. Now the Bible shines a light on this in 1 Peter 2:9 KJV which says "But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light." Now nowhere in this verse does it say we are to conform to those around us, however, it does point out that we are to be a unique people. Even though the word peculiar has many definitions, the one that stood out to me is belonging exclusively to someone or something. Our lives, as followers of Jesus, should portray that we are His and reflect the changes of our character He has manifested within us. We are to show the world that even though we were born into sin that does not mean we have to remain there.
During my quiet time with God, I asked Him to show me how I had gotten off track along with some practical solutions and here are the important points He wanted me to share.
1. Stop looking at what you think you lack.
By focusing on what you think you don't have, you can quickly start to examine what others are doing around you but for what God has called you to do will require your eyes to be completely fixed on Him. (Hebrews 12:2 KJV)
2. Stop comparing your life to others.
You must also realize this includes any previous season in your life as well. See, what God is trying to birth out of you is new and different that you can't rely on your old ways of doing things or even look to others to figure out how to get to where you need to go. (Proverbs 4:24-27 KJV)
3. Stop trying to reproduce the fruit of others.
Romans 12:4-6 KJV explains this best, and it says, "For as we have many members in one body, and all members have not the same office: so we, being many, are one body in Christ, and every one members one of another. Having then gifts differing according to the grace that is given to us..." So be sure to work with the gift and grace God has bestowed especially upon you!
Lastly, God is waiting for us to know, without a shadow of a doubt, who and whose we are because where He plans on taking us will require our identity to longer be in a state of crisis!